Growing up...

This month has been quite the roller coaster, and life has basically hit me in the face with "you are now an adult" and I've had to deal with a lot of issues I never really wanted to. Some I may not have dealt with in the most adult ways~a few tears, some pouting, denial, etc. But others I have handled in a way I was not sure I would have been capable of just a few years ago, I've stepped up, made tough decisions, and taken on more responsibilities.

Its funny, when I think of myself, in my head, I still see this college aged girl who has no cares in the world, life is easy, and I have no real worries besides how to or who is paying my bar tab that night. Life has a way of waking you up from that illusion whether you want to or not. Sometimes its your friends getting married, getting divorced, or having kids. Sometimes its your parents asking for your opinions on big life decisions, your older siblings depending on you to tell them the truth or its yourself paying your mortgage, medical bills, and car payments.

I have had a few friends who have had babies recently, and my initial reaction is always, "god I am so not ready for that" or "really? Are we old enough to have a kid" but then when I sit back and think about it, I realize I am a lot more capable than I usually give myself credit for. Now, don't get me wrong I am not going out and having a baby tomorrow. Not even close actually! I still want to go out with my friends on weekends, I still want to go to cougar football games in Pullman on a Saturday, I still want to pick up and travel when the urge sets in. But if this month has taught me anything its that when I/we are ready we'll be able to do it, and I'm not as scared as I once was (still a little scared though). Little by little I am growing up.



PS: Jim if you are reading this go ahead and BREATHE! I'm not on the baby track, yet...maybe just thinking about lining up for it;)